Its been a week of tears. Reading back over my posts since April, it looks like its been a year of tears. I broke my toe on Thanksgiving, all the more reason to cry. Its been a rough year. I've made huge efforts for change, some of which has come but I need more change. And I'm tired of putting out the effort. Feels like I've been trying too hard.
I've given this a lot of thought and have no answers. I'm not the type of person who can sit around and wait for things to happen. Not sure if this is a life lesson I am supposed to be learning.
I crave intensity, interaction and these days, a fuck load of attention. My girlfriend says I'm at a point where I am accepting scraps. I know what she means, but I am not sure what it really means, and how I should stop. Stop judging it? Stop having expectations? Stop running around? Stop living my life as I do?
I continue to be at a crossroads and am not sure where to go from here.
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